Love Nihilism     


Picture the crimson heavenly body vanishing into the light of dawn, in the blink of an eye you were gone, we use to hold hands through the raging storms. We put on masks of lies and throw what we believe in the darkness like prey trap, our bright futures turn fade black. Distance between us is earth and heaven we look to the sky,  place of haven memories live in the mind. With longing tragedies repeating inside,  I laugh at times to ease my pain, win-lose memories I regain the disdain pain again. Pain in vain my veins like ferocious winds, wind vane direct my aching heart to pain. Here in the dark my smile turn to frown, hardly could find reasonable reasons to be king without you no throne.

Our endless pain have no outlets, we bring heartbreak at each other doorsteps.  I drench your heart in precious desire colour crimson red, we swear no lies eventually we lie in bed, we lie in bed.  There is no past to look back on, since we let feelings move on, I keep telling myself the entire time, love need assistance we both do the entire climb. I think I would have nothing to lose anymore, like the shinning moon I drift through the silence, self love can shine light on any darkness. I will utilize the strength of the light in the future I am building immortal dreams, me myself and I a unique mortal team.

The self love inside me, keep me alive, when my heart get sting from the Queen of the beehive. Even pain with sorrow now drive me onward, I may break my neck if I look backward. On the path of my salvation, passion fuel me, guide me toward my true destiny, learn to control my feelings, a few might envy me. If it was not love we feel it was close, my heart use to skip a beat even when you keep on your clothes. My heart feels like the garden first time you bring a rose, now we disgust each other imagine seeing a human face without a nose. I still imagines both of us staring at shooting stars, wishing we become each other shining star. You are always my shining star so shine, you still glitter like gold goals golden gold mine. My eyes desire keep in the healthy living mind, even gold someday will vanish from the mines and absolutely the precious mind.


                                                                                                                                              Roland S Brown

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